I hope you see the colours that exist underneath the grey and within the dark.
A voice. Worthy and needed.
You may have seen the worst traits and actions done by your ‘friends’, peers or even family. Their words have hurt you and the constant aggression shown through their words has wearied you down. You are exhausted. But what’s more infuriating is that you think you deserve their unfair treatment and somehow you are the bad person. So, you put your head down when walking around, and you don’t speak unless spoken to.
That was me for the longest time, and I didn’t have some sort of revolutionary event to make me suddenly brave or speak out to someone. But I started to wonder why people would go to such lengths to make an individual feel so alone.
What had driven them to do that?
Is this their way of coping for their struggles?
Do they want me to feel like a nobody?
There is certain importance in getting into the mind-set of your bullies and seeing their intentions. Yes, the obvious may be to make fun of you for your intelligence, looks or religion (to name just a few) But one thing they all have in common is, they know you will accept their behaviour as they don’t expect you to speak out.
I know it may not be easy and the thought of even using your words to open up is terrifying but, its people like you who have been through such bitterness and hurt that hold such beauty and grace, that the environment you stay in radiates from your energy. The vulnerability in opening up about even one thing to someone, shows your courage and determination to make this world a kinder place.
When you open yourself you let in people, who you will find have also been through what you have or understand the emotions you feel. I think that’s where the power of your words start to blossom, the connection you feel with someone or something knowing that your worries and emotions don’t need to be justified. You are allowed to feel the way you do. You are not alone. When you start to see the kindness that was always there somewhere in humans, you will start realising that you were never a grey.
But when you are feeling blue here are some things to keep in mind:
Always be you don’t let anyone or anything change your morals and who you are.
Don’t be afraid to be yourself – stay true to yourself and don’t shy away from who you are.
Take a chance because if you don’t go on the edge, you’ll never see the view.